Friends

I have a topic to talk about in todays blog, That topic is friends. You ever sit down and realize if you have true friends or shall I say associates?
Well what do you classify someone who is your friend. Well many of us say we have friends, including myself. In reality those individuals we called our friends are the ones who are talking behind your back and act different when they are around a new group of prople. I classify a friend as a person who i can talk to about anything, and be safe to know that they wont tell anyone else. A Friend also is a person who will be there to try and help you through difficult times such as a death, problem or just want to have a friend there. A friend is a person who knows what you like what makes you smile and what makes you unhappy. A friend is not someone who will talk about you when your not around. also someone who calls you names or steals from you. A friend is also not a person who tries to fight you over something that was never said. I had this topic because i have realized that some of the friends i have had, turned out to be enemies. so when you choose your friends choose them right until next time.

Sibling Rivalry

I'm back again to report the blog of the day! The topic that is on my mind today is sibling rivalvry, i'm sure everyone in their life has had a dissagreement or argument with your brother or your sister. I know i have many of times. Do you ever sit down and relize the effect it has on one another. It tears apart a bond that you may have had in your relationship with your sibling, Or it can cause alot of drama or even worse loss of contact with that person all over some arguement or some disssagreement that should had been settled like grown adults. I have made mistakes in my relationships with my siblings ,But each and every day I think of how much hurt and pain I caused myself and also the pain that I may have caused for them. I really feel brothers and sisters should stick together through thick and thin. I feel that also no matter what the problem is , thats what families for to stick together and work it out. The love of your family and everyone who cares is priceless. nothing compares to the love and support you have from the bond you call family. Well family stick together for eachother don't fall apart. Until next time.

Stess stress stress !

Hello again today , My blog is about Stress. I have been dealing with alot of stress lately . There are some things that have me getting to me bad. I have had a couple of my family memebers who are helping with some things in my life. And i try to so hard to get them paid off for helping me where I am caught up But the income I get every month , I say to myself will I ever get caught up! But that still does not matter, It still bothers me that I am behind. And they are doing this for me at of the kindness of their hearts. But knowing I cant fully get caught Up It makes me feel like I can't do anything right. But I know they have always been by my side to support me . But another thing that has been stressing me out is the size of my apartment. It is very small I think for my two children and me, I have a neighbor who likes to knock on my door and always tell me to tell my kids to stop jumping around when really their not and to basically stop being kids. So me and my next door neighbor have had words with eachother I mean they are kids let them be kids. i have asked my landlord if he has and apartments available that has more privacy and bigger space , he said he did and that I can transfer if I like the apartment that he has . I told him that I would like to see it once it becomes available I said I would talk to someone and then let him know. But another thing that is so stressful is trying to find a part time job so I have more money coming in to take care of all my bills and get caught up on some of my bills also. But now a days it is so hard to do . I have a high school diploma no criminal background and still its so difficult to get a job. But every day I keep my head in a positive thinking and I atay focused and keep on moving and stay motivated in trying to make it in life for me and my two children. But soon I hope I can get some of these stressful things taking care of to where i don't have to worry about them any more. Until next time readers Have a blessed and safe day and always remember keep your life moving in a positive direction keep the negativity away from you .

A low Blow!

Well todays blog on this april fools day 2011 , my topic is about Individuals who try to make you feel real low in life. Also state in their own words that they are better than you, when they don't even realize that and don't care. Well today I posted a comment on facebook about a subject and really i felt a certain individual had made me feel so low and to a point I felt so hurt that it came from this person. Well but really It was really an april fools Joke and I was Going along with every ones comments and then an individual made me feel so low in their own words That they were better than me. In my own words shall I say they made me feel like dog poop. Well april fools everyone! Well if you know me well enough you should know that I like walking better then driving because thats what made me who i am today, and second if you know me I still have practicing to do on driving before I can get my license. But knowing an individual can bring a low blow like that It hurts. I know what I am capapble of succeeding in and I know some people that should really know me but don't and thats what hurts the most! Until next time Happy April Fools Day !.

I'm Living my life happy!

Well todays topic is about a man I have been with for almost two years, Well yes we have had our dissagreements and many other problems, But  people do make mistakes and  no one is perfect. You see
I have  turned to my family when we had our dissagreements and now it has gotten to the point that I have caused them to dislike him. well you see I have made mistakes in my life too. But getting to the point I have
been ducking and dodging my feelings about how i feel about this situation. I am thirty years old and I am happy, yes like i said he has done some things that he or myself are not happy about but he admits he was wrong and so do i . But just because you make one mistake should you hold that against him for the rest of his life, well i say no you shouldn't. So I am still to this day with him and I feel some people should stop judging him by either his color or what he has done wrong in his life. I am very happy with him now and I also feel that we have a stronger relstionship then we have had before. Also when I was out and no where to go for  awhile he helped me through that situation. And I held it away from my family for Months but at one point they finally found out. Well sometimes you cant help who you love or what happends in your life.  But as i was saying. I feel that If i am happy let me be happy, Let me live my life with the man that makes me feel happy. You see my son really looks up to him and as well as my daughter. he has helped me through alot. He has been my ears when I need to talk to someone or he is there when i just want to get advice about a situation I am going through. So yes I do feel That I see no reason why some people should tell me why am I with him. I am with him because i love him and we truly care about eachother. I also feel  It is my life and let me live it the way that makes me happy not what makes other people happy. I feel I live my life for other people to accept and now i'm sayinng let me live my life for me. I feel if this causes any problem then that is because you feel I am wrong but I am not I am happy and thats the way I will stay. I'm Living my life with my two children and my boyfriend I have been with for almost two years now .  I hope I have not offended anyone , but I had to let it out! Well feel free to comment if you like and i will respond if need be. Thanks again until next time.

My Goals and Dreams

Today I thought I would write about my goals and dreams in my life, That I wish would become a reality one day. well as I look at my life I see I struggle every month with bills and everything and I love my beautiful children with every ounce of everything in me. But I visualize sometimes about having a home that i and my kids can call their own instead of renting one , but so far that deream still has not come true. But hopefully one day it will. i have struggled for the last three months seeking to find a part time job. i never realized how hard it was . plus the economy is so messed up in the world today that no one is hiring. But every day I keep my head up and think posistive about life. Like they say when another door closes god opens another one for you. Bills rent and everything gets me to the poingt to where i am broke before the first week of the month.But i do make sure my kids have what they need and household items are care of. My grandfather and my uncle have been a huge support in my life. They have been their for me  through thick and thin and have never turned their backs on me. And I am thankful for their support and their love that they show for me and my children. I stay to myself cuz I myself stay away from drama and any negative vibes from individuals who want to bring mme down just because they are not having a good life. but if someone does knock me down, I dont stay down for long. I get back up and i try again. I say to myself one day my goals and dreams will become a reality. all  I have to do is keep my head up and stay strong like i have been all my life. Mykids and my family are my everythig and i cherish everything that we share in life. Life is too short to worry about drama and other things. It should be spent by loving family , children and cherishing the life god has given us. like i said I will be a success i will not be failure . I say that to myself every day in my life. Well I guess I will write a blog later but until then god bless and feel free to comment about the topic I have wrote about today!

Jan's words: Welcome!

Jan's words: Welcome!

Welcome!

Welcome to my blogspot, a page that I can express my feelings  and  opinions through words. I have been wanting to create a blog page for sometime now. I finally have been able to have time to do so.
I feel that writing is a sigh of relief from stress and emotions that I may be feeling. I also feel I can express my feelings better through words , poetry and art more than anything. so everyday I will try
to type in my blog about something I dont know what,  But everyday will be a new topic. Please after reading my blog to post any comments or questions that you may have for me or about my blog.I would be happy to respond to them as soon as possible. I hope you enjoy my blogspot and i Hope you will come to my blog spot and see what I have on my mind each day and feelings that I may have. So thank you for your time And I hope to see or hear from you again soon . Have a Good day!


                                                               Signed : Jans words