I'm Living my life happy!

Well todays topic is about a man I have been with for almost two years, Well yes we have had our dissagreements and many other problems, But  people do make mistakes and  no one is perfect. You see
I have  turned to my family when we had our dissagreements and now it has gotten to the point that I have caused them to dislike him. well you see I have made mistakes in my life too. But getting to the point I have
been ducking and dodging my feelings about how i feel about this situation. I am thirty years old and I am happy, yes like i said he has done some things that he or myself are not happy about but he admits he was wrong and so do i . But just because you make one mistake should you hold that against him for the rest of his life, well i say no you shouldn't. So I am still to this day with him and I feel some people should stop judging him by either his color or what he has done wrong in his life. I am very happy with him now and I also feel that we have a stronger relstionship then we have had before. Also when I was out and no where to go for  awhile he helped me through that situation. And I held it away from my family for Months but at one point they finally found out. Well sometimes you cant help who you love or what happends in your life.  But as i was saying. I feel that If i am happy let me be happy, Let me live my life with the man that makes me feel happy. You see my son really looks up to him and as well as my daughter. he has helped me through alot. He has been my ears when I need to talk to someone or he is there when i just want to get advice about a situation I am going through. So yes I do feel That I see no reason why some people should tell me why am I with him. I am with him because i love him and we truly care about eachother. I also feel  It is my life and let me live it the way that makes me happy not what makes other people happy. I feel I live my life for other people to accept and now i'm sayinng let me live my life for me. I feel if this causes any problem then that is because you feel I am wrong but I am not I am happy and thats the way I will stay. I'm Living my life with my two children and my boyfriend I have been with for almost two years now .  I hope I have not offended anyone , but I had to let it out! Well feel free to comment if you like and i will respond if need be. Thanks again until next time.

My Goals and Dreams

Today I thought I would write about my goals and dreams in my life, That I wish would become a reality one day. well as I look at my life I see I struggle every month with bills and everything and I love my beautiful children with every ounce of everything in me. But I visualize sometimes about having a home that i and my kids can call their own instead of renting one , but so far that deream still has not come true. But hopefully one day it will. i have struggled for the last three months seeking to find a part time job. i never realized how hard it was . plus the economy is so messed up in the world today that no one is hiring. But every day I keep my head up and think posistive about life. Like they say when another door closes god opens another one for you. Bills rent and everything gets me to the poingt to where i am broke before the first week of the month.But i do make sure my kids have what they need and household items are care of. My grandfather and my uncle have been a huge support in my life. They have been their for me  through thick and thin and have never turned their backs on me. And I am thankful for their support and their love that they show for me and my children. I stay to myself cuz I myself stay away from drama and any negative vibes from individuals who want to bring mme down just because they are not having a good life. but if someone does knock me down, I dont stay down for long. I get back up and i try again. I say to myself one day my goals and dreams will become a reality. all  I have to do is keep my head up and stay strong like i have been all my life. Mykids and my family are my everythig and i cherish everything that we share in life. Life is too short to worry about drama and other things. It should be spent by loving family , children and cherishing the life god has given us. like i said I will be a success i will not be failure . I say that to myself every day in my life. Well I guess I will write a blog later but until then god bless and feel free to comment about the topic I have wrote about today!

Jan's words: Welcome!

Jan's words: Welcome!

Welcome!

Welcome to my blogspot, a page that I can express my feelings  and  opinions through words. I have been wanting to create a blog page for sometime now. I finally have been able to have time to do so.
I feel that writing is a sigh of relief from stress and emotions that I may be feeling. I also feel I can express my feelings better through words , poetry and art more than anything. so everyday I will try
to type in my blog about something I dont know what,  But everyday will be a new topic. Please after reading my blog to post any comments or questions that you may have for me or about my blog.I would be happy to respond to them as soon as possible. I hope you enjoy my blogspot and i Hope you will come to my blog spot and see what I have on my mind each day and feelings that I may have. So thank you for your time And I hope to see or hear from you again soon . Have a Good day!


                                                               Signed : Jans words